Please be warned that the story you are going to read it's a violent, unjust, tough story. It's not recommended for the ones who do not want to admit, for example, how much racist and violent and abusive Italian security forces can be.
You meet Sahid at the library. You want me clandestine, but you are not going to cut me off the world. He reads newspapers, talks, argues. As he always did, in Morocco too. You have to keep your sight, to save yourself, to avoid being drowned by the non-existence to which they condemned you.(...)
It happened at the CPT1 in Bologna, his city. It's been his city for fifteen years already. It was his city before March the 2nd, and still is.
It's Sunday (...) At ten Pm Sahid is in the TV hall... in the intervals among words, the sound of rain against the cells' roof. Then a rumble. Not a thunder, but cries. Shutting up, snapping, running to see. A stronger beat, more irregular.
Across the fence the carabinieri took two boys that just tried to climb over. On that side of the fence there are Red Cross' rooms, the police's hut, the infirmary. But it's the only possible way out. They drag them towards the hut, shoving them, insulting. Sahid and the others scream, Leave 'em alone. They already know what is about to happen. They also know, though, that the cries won't stop them. And this just make them scream even more.
The two boys are a Russian and a Tunisian. They became buddies, learned to trust each other. To run away you have to trust your buddy, you must turn into a single body with him. If he stumbles, you stumble. You must be coordinate. Not that it would be enough anyway. It didn't worked for them. The carabinieri handed them over to the police (...)
And the speechless hear, not being deaf, the cries of their comrades, of the Tunisian and the Russian one, coming from the hut, they are being beaten. Thus someone climbs on the roof, untwists the light bulbs and throw them across the fence. Others go in front of the entrance and throw garbage bags. Then others go all the way back to the courtyard, detach a piece of gutter, throw it on the other side of the fence.
Demonstrative actions, policemen keep doing their job, and for the speechless there's only but to scream even more, and who is in charge cannot stand this. Policemen come out of the hut with the two boys, who have blood all over them, and that blood wasn't there when they got in. They bring them to the entrance, behind the gates there's Sahid who's resisting along with the comrades, they don't want retaliations. They duly open the gates enough to let the Russian and the Tunisian in, then they close them back.
Meanwhile more policemen open the hydrants against the ones on the roof. Some of them start to come down, but someone resists. One does not want to stop yelling, he just cannot be silent once again: he lived in Italy for years, he comes from Morocco but his children were born in Italy, they're italian, and he's now supposed to be quiet and let them deport him, leave his family behind, his life, no, this cannot be done without resisting. He goes on screaming. The foreman of the Red Cross convinces him to come down, one should trust his word. Come down, he tells him. It's all over. We are not going to do you no harm. He comes down, on the other side of the fence, and instead there, fists and kicks from the guards. Onto another one, who resisted with him up till the end, pours down a piece of cement, one that was thrown from the other side, a policeman decided to give it back to him.
A load of fists, then it seems over. Everybody gets back to the rooms, someone to the TV hall, but the TV is off now, some other attempts to have a coffee trying to swallow his rage. (...)
Sahid sees them as he comes out from the room. Policemen with the anti-riot outfit, harnessed with shields, helmets, truncheons. Punitive expedition. Woe to the vanquished. Along with them Sahid sees the foreman of the Red Cross, the only one who has all the keys of the camp. Sahid runs to the coffee room, They're coming, cries, Let's lock ourselves in. (...)
Policemen are before the door now. They begin to hit the door with the truncheons. One of Sahid's comrades gives it a try, Inspector, he says, there's no need to break through the door. We open it and we talk about it, he says. (...) The Inspector does not agree to the deal. No, he says, I am going to break through the door, and to break through you too. The Inspector is a man of his word. The moment he gets in he hits him with his truncheon. Then twelve more guards get in. Twelve, as the apostles. It may sound as a made-up detail for a story. But it's all real. The clubbing, besides, it's even more real. As it is the blood scattered all around, on the coffee machine, on the chairs, on the TV. Sahid gets his head ripped open and a finger broken.
When it's all done, and nobody keeps is legs, they go. They throw teargas in and close the door. There are no windows in the room, they're suffocating, but the boys have not the courage to get up and out. They hear screams from the other rooms. Everybody gets it, nobody has to be unaccounted for. It has to be written on their body that they are the speechless.
At the end of the roll call they are all gathered in the alley, in a row. They have been all written on cautiously, but it is quite clear that it takes a seal now, a neat and indelible signature. The seal goes on for three hours. All standing, exposed to clubbing, slapping, fists. A particularly creative policeman breaks his shield on Sahid's head. Spits in the face, insults yelled in the ear. And you have to stay put, motionless, if you don't want to make it worse. At Sahid's side someone faints. A policeman put a foot on his chest, as a hunter with the killed beast, glances with a satisfied look to his colleague, The bastard it's a three cylinders engine, he keeps working.
There's also the officer, Sahid recalls, going around with his mobile phone taking pictures. Who's the cutest? Then he stops in front of Sahid and takes a picture. Sahid stands still, as it should be for a souvenir picture. He looks at the lens, keeps his eyes wide open. And he sees the Red Cross' Foreman, the one who opened the fence, the one that should be humanitarian, heading the police, pointing with his finger the detainees, the good and the bad, doesn't leave anybody short. And policemen gain by his instructions. Two of them stand on the door, when the doctor arrives they warn, the doctor should not see the beating happening, it's risky, he could talk. The doctor arrives, one by one folks go to the infirmary, he gives them stitches, send them back. He doesn't see anything, but he doesn't want to see either. As many, too many in the italic borderlands of the European fortresses.
- Here the police is in charge, don't you see? That this is a land separated from Italy? That they made the law for us? Don't you see it, that we can do whatever we want? If you don't want to go to your country in flesh and bones, we will forward you in pieces, pieces of shit...
This is the guards' litany as Sahid remembers it. (...)
He says: to me, it's been an action planned in the slightest details, to give an essay to the CPT's guests on how the place is cut off from the rest of the world and that in that place police rules. We clandestines, as they call us, have only to endure it because, as the police tells us, we have no right to denounce them. We are cannon fodder, just that.
Yet Sahid, along with other comrades, didn't stand it. That writing of beatings on the flesh wasn't enough to make memory of their mutism. They went on talking. And they denounced their torturers. Not all of them did though. Some of them were repatriated right away. Among them, the Tunisian boy who tried to escape.
The moment I am writing this, Sahid has the appeal pending. His Stay Permit was not renovated by the police department, but the tribunal emitted a suspension, thanks to which if he's arrested he's not sent to a camp. Sahid keeps on walking in the streets of Bologna. To work illegally. What's more important he will keep to exercise his eye on the world. And he will resist until they will tear is eyes away, his tongue.
I was writing this only a few days ago. Today, October 20 2005, everything is changed. They tore Sahid's eyes away.
Simone, his lawyer, just called me, Sahid is on the line. Tomorrow I'm leaving, I'm going away from Italy. I'm scared. They won't let me live. They caught me again, the beat me again. It's been the same one, the chief of the camp, the one that broke through the door.
They caught him again, few days ago, while he was helping a friend to bring his bags to the railway station. He had the suspension of the tribunal... Instead they brought him at the police department, and from there, disregarding the tribunal's decree, they sent him back to the CPT at Mattei Street. Four days.
It's worse than it was. Much much worse. There are bars everywhere, over the head, aside, it's like staying in a hen house. There's not the courtyard anymore, just few meters outside the cells (...)
After four days the revocation of the incarceration arrived, Sahid cannot stay at the CPT, has to get out. As he went to the police department to get the revocation, there was the Inspector waiting for him. He took him to the bathroom. He slapped his face. He spat on his face. You have to understand that we are in charge here, he told him- No use to scream, we are at the police department here, nobody hears, nobody sees.
There was the revocation, but they took Sahid back to the CPT again. Not even there they could believe it when they saw him. The lawyer talked to the judge, and with his intervention he managed to get out again.
I have to run away, I'm leaving Italy tomorrow. I'm scared. They know where I live, they can come and get me whenever they want. And if they put drugs in my house... who's gonna believe me? I go. Where are you going, I ask him, Do you already know where to go, do you have friends that can give you hospitality? No. Only thing I know is that I have to get away from Italy. The only link he will keep, from tomorrow, will be the phone wire to the lawyer. For the rest, nothing. Bologna won't be his city anymore.
Before me is darkness, Sahid says.
Finally they managed to tear his eyes away, the dogs.
As the author tells us, this story is part of a book that will come out soon, all about the stories of the CPT detainees. Looking forward to the reading. Egoistically, I don't want to wake up ten years from now and ask myself: what, why didn't I figuered this out? What was I thinking? Were my own business so important in face of all that?